| Bree was sleeping and was pasted out for the past 2 days. She saw her dead mother, as I can only guess by how she was saying "Mom?"
I've been having these weird dreams.... I was talking to this girl who looked exactly like me but her eyes were golden, not purple. She was saying her name was Kira, but yet, it wasn't. Like she thought she had two names... The other name was Akari. BUT IF I TELL ANY OF THIS TO BREE, ED, AL, OR KITTY THEY'D THINK I WAS PSYCHO!!
Bree had a dream also, but hers was that she killed me. Oh well, it should happen. I deserve to die for all the sins I've done.
Trying to bring back Sora, but killing dad.
Not doing anything to Help Nina
Not caring for anyone in the world but myself.... I'm so selfish... I should die...
†Saya |
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| I came home from the hospital today. They gave me medications to help the bleeding. I think they think I'm suicidal cuz they gave me specific directions.
"Take one pill once a day!" the doctor said. The only doctor that wasn't aftraid of Bree. I went hoome and started bleeding worse then before, but I didn't tell my friends. They worry enough about me. The pills made the bleeding WORSE then ever so I stopped taking them.
This place bores me. I'm leaving. Bye
†Saya |
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| Today, my bleeding worsened.... Damn why wont it stop?! the wound is taking over my arm and thats not cool! -wrapps arm up in more bandages-
Ed: -walks in- Saya are you alright?
Me: uhh... yeah I'm fine.. -finishes wraping up arm-
Ed: it's bleeding through the bandages....
Me: I'm alright... don't worry about me
today I also was thinking about my brother Sora... Man I miss him...  |
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| Damn... My mom disapeared first, then Sora and Kityy. I thought I was gonna loose someone today, but I was proved Wrong. Edward was seriously injured in battle when Curiosity and Envy attacked him at once. It was terrible!! I ate Envy and Curiosity so fucking much! Why do they try to ruin our lives?! Why must they torture us?! Why must we make a fucking Philosopher's Stone?!
We don't even need to make one... it's imended into my arm. The tatoo on my arm was the fault of the Stone, and me being the sister to the Sky. Sora.... -tears well in eyes- DAMN WHY DOES THIS ALWAYS HAPPEN?!
It's all my fault. I'm to blame for Edward's injuries, I'm to blame for influencing Ed and Al to do that transmuation, I'm too blame for all that happens. All the fights, all te deaths, everything...
I'm going to bed... G'nite
†Saya |
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